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T/W Discussing abuse. Not in any real detail, but it comes up. So in The Sims 4, the alien sims have the ability to wipe a person's memory of them from the other sim's mind. I think that's pretty cool, but it would be more awesome if you could actually wipe their whole memory (and…

Netflix and Chill

Yo, how're you doing? I'm been busting my backside trying to get all my revision notes done before my exams which are actually starting this month! I know. My university is evil. But I've got a little time here so I'm gonna give a quick life update. And it's actually not going to be negative…

The Negative Voice

Just a little trigger warning- I talk about self-harm here, but not in too much detail. The other day in therapy, I mentioned self-harm to my therapist, that I'd tried it once (which now that I think about it- that was untrue. I've probably self-harmed a lot more) and recently got the urge to do…

Double-Teaming Anxiety: Me and Zii

I've been having trouble figuring out a name to give my closest uni friend for a while now, but I thought I'd settle on Zii. Zii is the name of a character in a webcomic called Ménage à trois (A real cool NSFW comic- loads of lgbt characters because yeah, I like that shit). Keep…

Just a Life Update I guess…

A little content/trigger warning: I'm gonna be talking about paranoid thoughts and suicidal thoughts. Don't know if this really needs a CW/TW but I don't want to legitimately trigger someone. I'm trying to be a rational yet decent human being. Ugh, I've had no will to write a post...   So I've had about 2 sessions…

What I’ve Learnt

Hey, I've been gone for a long time and I apologise for that. In the time I've been gone, I've gone through so many ups and downs emotionally, been going through periods of self-hatred, but I've also had some good moments. It's been a real emotional rollercoaster. I won't go into detail about everything because…

LNR: Lateness Anxiety

So this morning I had a bit of an episode. I had just missed my train when I got to the station. I got a later train which was 3 minutes after so it wasn't a big deal. It was only when I wanted to get my second train, it left before the doors of…

With Unwanted Thoughts at Bay, I’m Having a Lovely Day

Hey!! Peanut here. I'm in a good mood for once today!! I mean, this morning I did have an argument with my mum, but I think I'll make a separate post about all that. Let's focus on the positives for now! Well, it's not like anything amazing happened, but today went pretty nicely. I had…

A Lot of Reflection

Possible trigger warning? Talking about the subject of abuse, but there's no super graphic descriptions of abuse. I just thought I should mention this. I don't want to trigger anyone, seriously. (And by 'trigger' I don't mean 'offend' I mean literally 'trigger') Hey. This'll be somewhat of an update since I've been pretty much silent…

LNR: Let It Go

I thought about the song 'let it go' from frozen today. I really love the song, but I could never understand why I related to it so much. But then it clicked. 'Conceal, don't feel.' I mean, that's just my whole life. Being told not to feel. That it's wrong. That I need to conceal…

Sort of a Life Update: Mental Health and Uni Stuff

Hey, So I've been avoiding blogging recently, or at least, I didn't feel like it. Luckily I've had some stuff scheduled in the meantime (but those are gonna finish soon!) Since I've made a few personal posts, I wanted to avoid making another personal one for a while. I didn't want to fall down that…

LNR: Crocodile Tears

Note: possible trigger warning, I talk about abuse though not in graphic detail (Look, I don't know how triggering works so I'm just being careful) so yeah you've been warned. [Insert horizontal line here] Hi. It's late and I have a huge headache but I'm kind of excited/sad so I wanted to talk (type) about…